Confidently Approach

Hebrews 4:15-16 on watercolor background

God is approachable & He understands our struggles with human weakness because he sent Jesus to serve in human form. He became one of us to be able to fully understand and serve us. How powerful is that?!

We don’t have to shy away from our reliance on the gift of His grace – it’s actually what He wants of us. In our work lives. In our relationships. In our spiritual lives. He wants us to rely on Him and take Him up on His offer to help us navigate our worldly issues. It brings us to Him each time we acknowledge our weakness and lean on Him.

So with whatever struggles you have today, just remember…

Approach the throne. Receive grace. Receive mercy. Receive help.

The Part That’s Been Missing

It’s been a while since I’ve been able to photograph a full shoot. And not necessarily by my choice.

Earlier in our pregnancy we got news that there was a complication that meant restricted activity. No exercise. No picking up Peanut. And clearly, no hauling photo gear and running around in the heat for shoots. I squeaked out Quinn’s newborn photos (thanks to the help of Jason hauling the baskets/blankets/my photo bag in and out of the house for me – THANK YOU, JASON!), but that was about it.

Other shoots had to be rescheduled (more thank you’s go out here to my AMAZING clients who were so kind and supportive about this), and inquiries had to be declined. And it was worth it to be sure I was doing all that I could to keep our little girl safe and sound for as long as possible.

But to be honest, y’all, it sucked too.

Because I miss it. I know that I won’t be shooting for a few weeks after having the new baby, and that’s ok. But the combination of limited activity for weeks/months prior to that point just makes for a long time without shooting. Without working with my clients. And I miss it. I miss them.  I miss getting to be a part of those life moments – the big and the little.

Nacogdoches photographer family portraits in a field filled with morning light

I’m so happy to say that our God is good and has answered our prayers for the complication to resolve itself! So thankful for His provision for us & for His healing. And I’m so so so thankful for all of the prayers that were sent up on our behalf – including those coming from clients who knew of our situation.

But I’m honestly still having a hard time with so much time out from my photography. Sure, it’s been a good break to be able to just go to sleep at a decent hour (or at least try to sleep lately) rather than being up late editing after everyone’s gone to bed, but I miss it.

Photography is such a big part of me and it’s been hard to take such a step back from it. It has felt like there’s this big part of me that’s been missing. I’ve been trying to work on other photo-related projects to fill the void, but working with clients and facilitating the portrait experience from beginning to end is like that phantom limb. It’s there in my mind, but in reality it’s gone.

 

I’m trying to take what I can from this season that has been orchestrated for me. I’m trying to take the slower time to rest and to learn. I’m trying to remember that the weeks will go by quickly, and I’ll be back soon enough. I’m trying to make the most of this and be at peace with it, but I’m sure squeezing in one more shoot before the baby arrives will help a little bit too!

 

So here’s to phantom limbs, trying to embrace slow seasons (wanted or unwanted), and to answered prayers!

He Provides

I am always so thankful when God sends reminders my way that in the midst of all of the chaos, He has never left, and He is sending me just what I need for each and every day. When plans go awry, when the answer seems to just be silence, when I get caught up in my own wishes and desires.

 

It may be a gorgeous sunrise that takes my mind off of the lack of sleep that’s left me dragging.

It may be a request from Peanut for “fishy kisses” in the middle of a day where I feel totally inadequate as a parent.

It may be a simple text or a conversation with a friend that makes me feel less alone in the struggle and reminds me to continue to focus on Him and His will.

Nacogdoches photographer Bible verse 2 Corinthians 12:9 with image of clouds

I had one of those moments yesterday, and as always, it was in His perfect timing.

 

In all seasons, we need to remember that He will give us the grace we need to weather the storm or praise the victories. And even if His answer is “no” or “wait” or simply silence, there is always an answer. And a beautiful reason for it. He will provide. It’s our job to trust and to try our best to open our hearts. It’s not always easy to just sit in the circumstances that are causing us to rely solely on His grace, but it is worth it to strengthen your reliance on Him and allow His plan to take shape.