This Is What I Have For You

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Y’all know I love me some Chip & Joanna Gaines (like most people). I’m currently reading The Magnolia Story as part of my Yearly Bucket List for this year, and while I think the woman is an incredible designer, I’m am the most in awe of her wisdom & her faith.

I’ll admit, I tend to have a hard time with the listening part of prayer. Maybe it’s my perfectionism or my stubbornness, I don’t know, but there’s just something that I struggle with when it comes time to just be still & listen to what He is speaking over my life.

But I keep trying. I keep working hard for the things I think He’s led me to, and I try to continue to listen for the whispers of His heart. And I think the trying (even if it feels like just one more thing I’ve failed at) is probably one of the things He has for me. The learning through the process, and growing into a deeper form of prayer.

So let’s just encourage one another to try to let go of the lies, the expectations (the ones we have of ourselves & those we think others have of us), and the pressure, and just let Him guide us to walk in the truth.

Open Season

I’m going to be honest with y’all and say that this season in life has been a strange one for me. Like I’ve mentioned before, I’m such a planner, and not knowing exactly what the next steps will be has been an adjustment.

But as I’m going into this next adventure in our family life, I’m excited about having to switch my mindset.

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I’ve usually been booked solid between a full-time job, photography & being a mama. Even before Peanut was born, all the way back to high school, I typically had a plan and next steps all lined out before the transition began.

This time? It’s not quite laid out. And while that’s really weird for me, I’m really excited about it because it’s really pushing me to be open. To really listen to what God is speaking into my life, and where He’s calling me to serve. I’ve started the process & stepped into a small role at Peanut’s school for the next two months.

 

So as new things begin to flow into my life, I’m excited about working on my ability to listen, to discern, & to say “Yes” if that’s how I feel called to respond.

So here’s to open season, y’all. And here’s to learning to listen!

Every Morning

In this crazy, crazy time of uncertainty with our family as we try to sell two properties, buy a house and figure out my next step job-wise, it’s been hard to not stress out about how all the pieces will fit.

I so easily slip into my planner mode, and try to figure it all out. To fix it all. To force the answers.

But in this season, at least so far in the beginning of it, the answer has been “Wait.”

I’m not the best with “Wait.”

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Then my sweet mama left a card for Max and I the other day (it also happened to be accompanied by a bottle of wine & some cookies – have I mentioned how much I love that woman??), and it helped me reset my frame of mind. Or at least remember to try to reset my frame of mind.

In addition to the card’s message, and the words added in by my mother was this verse from Lamentations. And y’all, it was just what I needed.

I had been focusing on the long-haul. Even just the next few weeks or months.

But what I needed to do was just focus on His mercies, and focus on the day at hand. To do all that I can, but let go of the pressure I keep placing on myself to find the solution. So I prayed over this verse a lot, and tried to trust in Him and His plan for our family. To let go of the control that I so foolishly think is mine.

Just as I switched my focus to be thankful and to celebrate His mercies that are newly furnished for me each morning, some of the answers changed from “Wait.”

So here’s to mornings.

Here’s to His mercies.

And here’s to embracing “Wait.”